Tracking back in was hard today, I was anxious about it last night. This is my week to tend to the dog in the morning, and Josie had peed and pooped in the kitchen overnight. (In fact, she peed in the kitchen four times today--most likely because she was having to hold her bladder for twice as long as she got used to while I was tracked out.) After I took her out and cleaned her mess, I was nauseous and dry heaved in the sink for a while, which almost made me late...like I said, it was hard to go back to work.
Morning sickness is still on and off all day, every day. I am really getting tired of it. I'll be 11 weeks on Thursday and it really should peak by then.
The third grade teacher I help told her students I was expecting today. They all wanted to know if I was having a boy or a girl. Of course, the girls thought I would have a girl, the boys thought I would have a boy. I figure I'll wait for the next ultrasound (should be within ten days) to be okay, before I tell the kindergartners.
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Monday, December 3, 2012
Thursday, November 29, 2012
Start of Week Eleven
Peanut, you are 10 full weeks old! I am a little anxious this week. This past May, Angel passed away when she was 10.5 weeks old. I am worried about possibly having to relive this trauma. Also, Angel's due date was to be this Saturday. As happy as I am to have you in my life, Peanut, I still miss Angel.
Well, this coming week, you will grow to be 2 inches long and will weigh a third of an ounce. You really look like a little person, with hands and feet at the front of your body, open nasal passages on the tip of your nose, a tongue and palate in your mouth, and ears nearly in their final shape. Hair follicles will form and fingernail and toenail beds will, too. Your fingers and toes are all individual and separately formed, not webbed anymore. If you are a girl, your ovaries are developing! We love you very much.
More smells seem to bother me lately, just random things, but especially Josie, our bulldog. It feels like the house doesn't even smell like a place for people anymore. I am also still a bit nauseous, but not as bad as the last two weeks. I'm also moody and irritable, which I feel bad about. I track back in to school on Monday for three weeks, before Christmas break starts. Hopefully it will be a decent transition. I did decide to stay with my job as long as I have Peanut, instead of going to look for something else. It's not a good time for a career change, and I need the good health insurance that I get for working for the state.
I have my first appointment with the midwives at the Birth Center in an hour and a half! I am really hoping everything looks great and that I will be able to hear Peanut's heartbeat. If I'm not, I want to ask for another ultrasound on Friday. I can't wait another two weeks without knowing if Peanut is okay or not.
Well, this coming week, you will grow to be 2 inches long and will weigh a third of an ounce. You really look like a little person, with hands and feet at the front of your body, open nasal passages on the tip of your nose, a tongue and palate in your mouth, and ears nearly in their final shape. Hair follicles will form and fingernail and toenail beds will, too. Your fingers and toes are all individual and separately formed, not webbed anymore. If you are a girl, your ovaries are developing! We love you very much.
More smells seem to bother me lately, just random things, but especially Josie, our bulldog. It feels like the house doesn't even smell like a place for people anymore. I am also still a bit nauseous, but not as bad as the last two weeks. I'm also moody and irritable, which I feel bad about. I track back in to school on Monday for three weeks, before Christmas break starts. Hopefully it will be a decent transition. I did decide to stay with my job as long as I have Peanut, instead of going to look for something else. It's not a good time for a career change, and I need the good health insurance that I get for working for the state.
I have my first appointment with the midwives at the Birth Center in an hour and a half! I am really hoping everything looks great and that I will be able to hear Peanut's heartbeat. If I'm not, I want to ask for another ultrasound on Friday. I can't wait another two weeks without knowing if Peanut is okay or not.
Thursday, September 20, 2012
Second Try
September is our second attempt to conceive after losing Angel in May. I still hate seeing pregnant women and reading their Facebook posts. I think about how far along I would be right now (seven and a half months) and what I might look like and what our nursery might look like, and what our showers would have been like. No tears for a long time, but I still feel low if I think about it for a while.
A friend from our church small group is organizing a sort of "Christian women's infertility group" tonight. There are eight couples in our small group...three have children, one's not trying, and four of us have had a miscarriage or haven't conceived at all for 1-2 years. I told her I'd give it a try. Of course I'm hoping that, in 3 weeks, I'll find that I'm pregnant again. But I know it's never a given, even though we had such easy luck the first time around.
In other news, Josie is four months old tomorrow and just slightly less trouble than she was last month. She's 22lbs now! Jared is keeping busy at work, and I am prayerfully considering changing careers. Teaching assisting is not what it used to be, and it's only going to get worse. No one teaches for the money, but if you were GROSSING less than 25K AND you hated what you did....wouldn't you look elsewhere? Life's too short to hate what you do.
A friend from our church small group is organizing a sort of "Christian women's infertility group" tonight. There are eight couples in our small group...three have children, one's not trying, and four of us have had a miscarriage or haven't conceived at all for 1-2 years. I told her I'd give it a try. Of course I'm hoping that, in 3 weeks, I'll find that I'm pregnant again. But I know it's never a given, even though we had such easy luck the first time around.
In other news, Josie is four months old tomorrow and just slightly less trouble than she was last month. She's 22lbs now! Jared is keeping busy at work, and I am prayerfully considering changing careers. Teaching assisting is not what it used to be, and it's only going to get worse. No one teaches for the money, but if you were GROSSING less than 25K AND you hated what you did....wouldn't you look elsewhere? Life's too short to hate what you do.
Monday, August 20, 2012
Stuff
There's not much to update on our journey towards parenthood. Period was 4-5 days, a little shorter than what I was used to. Jared and I will try to work around his being away, and hope my cycle is a little shorter (or longer) than 29 days.
Josie, our puppy, is a lot of work. I knew she would be, but that doesn't make it better. I love it when she naps--it means I don't have to entertain her, scold her about biting things, listen to her bark or worry about her peeing in the house. I feel sure that I will love her when she's an adult, but I don't like everything that puppies entail.
Today is my Dad's birthday--we went to dinner with him this weekend and gave him his gifts. It was nice to see him, and Mom and my brother, who has just purchased his first home!
Today is also my first day of being tracked-out from my year-round school. Even with dealing with Josie, it beats a day in the classroom! I really needed this break.
Like I said, nothing of substance. Life is in those long, end of summer days where I try to soak in as much sunshine and warmth as possible, in some sort of effort not to freeze during the winter!
Josie, our puppy, is a lot of work. I knew she would be, but that doesn't make it better. I love it when she naps--it means I don't have to entertain her, scold her about biting things, listen to her bark or worry about her peeing in the house. I feel sure that I will love her when she's an adult, but I don't like everything that puppies entail.
Today is my Dad's birthday--we went to dinner with him this weekend and gave him his gifts. It was nice to see him, and Mom and my brother, who has just purchased his first home!
Today is also my first day of being tracked-out from my year-round school. Even with dealing with Josie, it beats a day in the classroom! I really needed this break.
Like I said, nothing of substance. Life is in those long, end of summer days where I try to soak in as much sunshine and warmth as possible, in some sort of effort not to freeze during the winter!
Sunday, July 29, 2012
Healing, At Last
It's Sunday again. I haven't bled in eight days. I find myself going to the bathroom without checking the toilet paper. It's been forever since I did that. I think, finally, that I am healing. I feel like the next bleeding will be a period, and then Jared and I can start trying again. I have started talking to God again and telling Him I want a restored relationship--for Him to come back to me, and for me to come back to Him. It's slow going.
Jared and I celebrated our fourth wedding anniversary on Thursday! He brought me roses and took me out to dinner. I got him a CD he asked for, and a gift card to Best Buy--his favorite store. We're just not the kind of people who need big, elaborate gifts.
On Friday, we got a puppy. Her name is Josie, and she's an English bulldog. We have been planning on getting her for a year and a half. Jared's never had a dog, but always wanted this particular breed. I had Ginger, who was a mutt. She was a great dog, and I hope Josie will be a great dog too. We're butting heads on house-training, currently.
I guess, all said and done, it's been a great week and I have a lot to be thankful for. I'm trying to go back to being more vocal in my talks with God about the good things He's done for me. But honestly, after all He has allowed me to go through, it's hard to go back to the way it was before.
Jared and I celebrated our fourth wedding anniversary on Thursday! He brought me roses and took me out to dinner. I got him a CD he asked for, and a gift card to Best Buy--his favorite store. We're just not the kind of people who need big, elaborate gifts.
On Friday, we got a puppy. Her name is Josie, and she's an English bulldog. We have been planning on getting her for a year and a half. Jared's never had a dog, but always wanted this particular breed. I had Ginger, who was a mutt. She was a great dog, and I hope Josie will be a great dog too. We're butting heads on house-training, currently.
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