We've entered the two week wait. Every time we think about it, we pray that God gives us a "healthy, living child". Last time we prayed to get pregnant, which wasn't enough. Somehow, I guess we feel that if we're more specific, we'll have a better outcome. It's weird and irrational...we know.
I wonder how long it will take to get pregnant again. Last time, we were pregnant our very first try. I can't imagine it will happen again, although I'd like to hope for it. How long will it take? How long should we try before getting concerned?
After my miscarriage, I prayed that if I was never going to have a healthy, living child, that God never let me conceive again. I'd rather have that than deal with more miscarriages.
Friday, September 28, 2012
Thursday, September 20, 2012
Second Try
September is our second attempt to conceive after losing Angel in May. I still hate seeing pregnant women and reading their Facebook posts. I think about how far along I would be right now (seven and a half months) and what I might look like and what our nursery might look like, and what our showers would have been like. No tears for a long time, but I still feel low if I think about it for a while.
A friend from our church small group is organizing a sort of "Christian women's infertility group" tonight. There are eight couples in our small group...three have children, one's not trying, and four of us have had a miscarriage or haven't conceived at all for 1-2 years. I told her I'd give it a try. Of course I'm hoping that, in 3 weeks, I'll find that I'm pregnant again. But I know it's never a given, even though we had such easy luck the first time around.
In other news, Josie is four months old tomorrow and just slightly less trouble than she was last month. She's 22lbs now! Jared is keeping busy at work, and I am prayerfully considering changing careers. Teaching assisting is not what it used to be, and it's only going to get worse. No one teaches for the money, but if you were GROSSING less than 25K AND you hated what you did....wouldn't you look elsewhere? Life's too short to hate what you do.
A friend from our church small group is organizing a sort of "Christian women's infertility group" tonight. There are eight couples in our small group...three have children, one's not trying, and four of us have had a miscarriage or haven't conceived at all for 1-2 years. I told her I'd give it a try. Of course I'm hoping that, in 3 weeks, I'll find that I'm pregnant again. But I know it's never a given, even though we had such easy luck the first time around.
In other news, Josie is four months old tomorrow and just slightly less trouble than she was last month. She's 22lbs now! Jared is keeping busy at work, and I am prayerfully considering changing careers. Teaching assisting is not what it used to be, and it's only going to get worse. No one teaches for the money, but if you were GROSSING less than 25K AND you hated what you did....wouldn't you look elsewhere? Life's too short to hate what you do.
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