Peanut, you gave us a scare today! Or maybe I just scared myself. I had the "perfect storm" of anxiety brewed.
First, at your anatomy scan, we were told there was a retroplacental bleed (an area of blood behind the placenta, between it and the uterus). The doctor wanted us to come back in six weeks to check on it--worst case scenario, it could lead to placenta abruption, which would be very dangerous for me and almost certainly fatal for you.
Second, our sweet friends at church lost their little girl a week ago, and we were almost the same length of time along.
Third, I had gotten used to feeling you move at regular intervals over the last 10 days, and Saturday, Sunday and Monday I nearly didn't feel you at all. My normal discharge decreased, and my abdomen was tender, but very firm.
So, I called the Birth Center Monday, expecting a "silly first time mom, everything's fine, don't worry", but instead they asked me how far away I lived and if I could make it in to check for a heartbeat today. This frightened me so badly that I started to cry and could hardly think straight, except to call Jared and my mom. I asked some friends to pray, and asked mom to help me by asking some people to pray. Jared took off work for a couple of hours to come with me to the Birth Center, where they were running 30 minutes behind (SO hard, I nearly went rummaging for the doppler myself). The midwife got me on the table and put the doppler wand directly onto Peanut's heartbeat. It was just fine, between 140 and 150, and the midwife said she was moving right then. She looked at me and said, "did you feel that?" I said no, and she said that she felt it from outside my belly--Peanut kicked up at the doppler and physically bumped the wand away. I didn't feel it at all!
So, I was so relieved that I started crying again, and then I felt really silly, like Henny Penny who ran around telling everyone the sky was falling, when really an acorn just fell on her head. I am very thankful for all the people who were praying for us--I was able to keep fairly calm after that initial response from the phone call. I'm sure that was due to prayers.