Either No or Too Early

Got a negative this morning.  Thinking it may be too early, either way.  If I ovulated last Friday, then it's really only been nine days.  I mean, the test says you can take it five days before your period, but more people get results if you wait longer.  HcG hormone doubles every 48 hours, so I'll try again on Monday and on Wednesday if necessary.  I should start my period on Wednesday if I'm not pregnant.

All those friends who got pregnant right around the same time as me are announcing they're 30 weeks, 34 weeks, 36 weeks....I feel very bitter.  I would be 32 weeks today.  Instead, I'm back at square one, possibly nine days pregnant but also very possibly not pregnant at all.

A Most Probable Miss

Jared left yesterday afternoon...he will be back Thursday night, when it will be too late.  I don't feel I'm obsessive over getting pregnant, but it helps me plot out my dates if I write about them.  I'm bummed that this month is most likely a wash-out, but we will try again next month.  It looks like my cycle will be 28-29 days.  I hope that it will stay regular and trusty, like it was before everything.

Angel, I love you!  You're in my heart and my thoughts...you'll never be forgotten.  When I am pregnant again, and people ask if this is my first, I will tell them no.  You were my baby, and I was so sad and sorry to have to say goodbye to you.  Love you so much, sweetheart.

Scratch that.  Jared will be in Wisconsin for work the whole three days we should try.  So much for being pregnant by September, which seemed like a reasonable goal back in May, when I was told I would bleed for two weeks and then be back to normal.  Much disappointment.